It felt a lot like learning how to finally really fly after clinging to the edge of the nest too long. That initial drop hurt. Made him sick and nauseous just thinking about all the ways it would go wrong. And then that sudden rush of finally. Finally he got everything he wanted. Funny how everything to him really narrowed down to this moment. Jim Kirk in his arms and kissing him.
But then, Leonard was always more simple than anything else. Following Jim out into the black had been a hard yet easy decision. He'd not even dwelt on the fear and the queasy feeling he normally got when told he would spend five years in space. He just simply said yes. He accepted his commission and dealt with the after effects later.
Worth it. Every moment had been and always would be worth it. Regardless if Jim loved him back or not. And when he thought about what might have happen if he hadn't accepted the position as CMO...
It sent a chill down his spine that he turned into a more pressing need to kiss Jim harder and deeper as he wrapped his arms about him and pulled him close. When he had to finally come up for air, he found himself just peering into Jim's face with a certain level of awe in his gaze. And more than anything else, he wanted to tell Jim to never go where he couldn't follow him. "So... if I give you a reason to make it back alive, think you'll do a better job to do just that?" He wouldn't stop Jim from being Jim... but at least he hoped he'd try harder. Strive to get back to him and not just give up cause he was a better sacrifice than someone else.
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But then, Leonard was always more simple than anything else. Following Jim out into the black had been a hard yet easy decision. He'd not even dwelt on the fear and the queasy feeling he normally got when told he would spend five years in space. He just simply said yes. He accepted his commission and dealt with the after effects later.
Worth it. Every moment had been and always would be worth it. Regardless if Jim loved him back or not. And when he thought about what might have happen if he hadn't accepted the position as CMO...
It sent a chill down his spine that he turned into a more pressing need to kiss Jim harder and deeper as he wrapped his arms about him and pulled him close. When he had to finally come up for air, he found himself just peering into Jim's face with a certain level of awe in his gaze. And more than anything else, he wanted to tell Jim to never go where he couldn't follow him. "So... if I give you a reason to make it back alive, think you'll do a better job to do just that?" He wouldn't stop Jim from being Jim... but at least he hoped he'd try harder. Strive to get back to him and not just give up cause he was a better sacrifice than someone else.