"You certainly go and pull lots of funny rabbits out of the hat, that's for damn sure." He groused those words in irritation, but he was also so thankful that Jim could do just that. Come out on top regardless of the odds. Until Khan. His eyes closed at that thought, and his chest tied up in knots. When he finally opened his eyes to meet those of blue and their searching gaze, he knew the furrow that marred his brow was more one of desperation than any thing else. The kind that could push him to tears if he didn't rein it in.
Both hands rose to cup Jim's face as he only managed a nod for now. He couldn't make himself do more than that without pushing himself to tears. "Always be waitin' for you." Just as he always had and he always would. And with the way his voice wavered on those words, he had to blink his eyes a few times to push away the burning feeling in them.
"First I'm going to ask him to stay." He said the words quietly, his hands moving to cup around Jim's on his face. Hazel slid back to Jim's when he dared to try again and get a firmer grasp on his emotions. "Then I'm gonna 'pologize cause I know... I know I can't just break myself of makin' sure you're still breathing." So many nights he woke up panicking. Scared to death for no reason. "Do you know why I deflected you that day you woke up?"
He could feel it, that tell tale sheen of tears forming over his vision and causing Jim's face to go out of focus. "Cause I spent so many days cryin' over you and not sleepin' that I knew... I knew if I talked to you too much right then I was gonna fall apart. And that was the last thing you needed. So yeah... I complain that you didn't thank me, but I also brought it on myself."
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Both hands rose to cup Jim's face as he only managed a nod for now. He couldn't make himself do more than that without pushing himself to tears. "Always be waitin' for you." Just as he always had and he always would. And with the way his voice wavered on those words, he had to blink his eyes a few times to push away the burning feeling in them.
"First I'm going to ask him to stay." He said the words quietly, his hands moving to cup around Jim's on his face. Hazel slid back to Jim's when he dared to try again and get a firmer grasp on his emotions. "Then I'm gonna 'pologize cause I know... I know I can't just break myself of makin' sure you're still breathing." So many nights he woke up panicking. Scared to death for no reason. "Do you know why I deflected you that day you woke up?"
He could feel it, that tell tale sheen of tears forming over his vision and causing Jim's face to go out of focus. "Cause I spent so many days cryin' over you and not sleepin' that I knew... I knew if I talked to you too much right then I was gonna fall apart. And that was the last thing you needed. So yeah... I complain that you didn't thank me, but I also brought it on myself."